Today is a tough day and there is simply no way around it. For at about this time I was in a mad dash to the hospital to be by the love of my life. I didn’t care if I closed our front door or not. I just had to get to her. She had just told me she was going to have to have a second surgery. The first one was planned but this was not. Needless to say it changed everything. It was less than 6 hours from the time she called to her being back in surgery. It turned out to be the longest day of my life. She had had bad health issues through the years but this was different. This time I came within an eyelash of losing her for good. It has been the most challenging year of my life and it’s not over. However she is still with us and we don’t know how much longer we will have her but when she plays with our cat that is what this has been all about.
When you sit down to eat you choose those things you like and feel like you have some kind of control. Then why don’t people who are on drugs for depression take pretty much anything a doctor will give you? You must approach any medicine you take the same as you would food. Here is a fact there are doctors who will prescribe something just to make you go away. Then there are those that will put you on one drug for a short time then change to another. That is dangerous for you. Your mindset should be the fewer the better. Pills alone will not solve any problems you may be facing. They may mask things but are not the total answer. I have spoken to many mental health professionals and there is not an agreement on what the long term side effects of these medicines have on people. So why take the risk? There are those that truly need medicines as a supplements to other treatments and those should be pursued. It’s your body and you do have control over what you put into it!
Depression a simple word that gets tossed around life a feather in a thunderstorm. The reality is those are truly depressed are the best actors ever. The public face of depression is around you and you never know it. I am not talking about the ” I am having a bad day depression”. What I am talking about is something far deeper into the soul of someone. It’s a place unless you have been there you simply can’t understand it. I call it the “hole” which is a very small emotional place that very few have gone and most will never admit even if they have. We simply don’t. Those of us who have can win any award possible. We are very good actors and yet at the same time we are in so much pain internally that you feel your soul is going to burst out of your chest. The ” hole” can last for seconds or days yet those of us never know. Think about that for a second. Your soul wants to rip out of your chest but you are acting like everything is ok. It’s not and you will never know.