It’s Christmas eve and my heart is so lonely. It has been the most difficult year of my life and the one place where I thought that would be there for me would be my church. With a few exceptions they haven’t been and it just leaves me in wonder why that hasn’t been the case. I have pretty much begged for help for my wife and I and nobody wants to help. I am what is commonly known as a church kid. ( That means I grew up in church). I know times are different but it just hurts. I look out the window at night just wondering why this is happening?